I mentioned in the last Love, Bridget episode that I’m working on an ebook full of spiritual recipes. I’m excited about this small project, but as I’ve gotten closer to the end things seem to have slowed down. As in, I’m finding it hard to do the work I need to do to get this done.
I know that part of it is fear. I don’t want to put something out there that sucks, and so it feels so much safer to just not put anything out there at all. Part of it is that it feels kinda overwhelming. I’ve been reading up on launching an ebook and there is A LOT of info out there. And the lots of info means lots of different ideas to wade through to figure out how to do this thing. And what if I don’t do it right and no one even sees the book. Another reason it would be so much safer to just not do it at all.
I’m gonna do this. For no other reason than I believe, in a small way, it is an act of obedience on my part. Honestly, it feels rather gracious of the Lord to let me put this smaller, lighter book out there first. To just kinda dip my toes in before I’m called to put the book I’ve been working on for over a year now out there. To gain a little familiarity with how it feels to offer your work to the world.
Granted, I do that regularly here on the blog. However, I’ve been offering rather safe stuff here. I know that. I’ve been easing in to my real voice. I read an ebook about launching ebooks this morning, and I wrote down a quote from it. It was talking about writing from your own voice, your authentic, author voice:
Your author voice is how you speak when you don’t fear consequences.
Dude. I totally fear consequences. I wish I didn’t, but I do. And my past proves it. Not only do I want everyone to like me, but I also don’t want to be wrong. I’m old enough now to know that I can and do get things wrong. Often.
I’m gonna do this. I’m gonna finish this small book. I’m gonna figure out how to launch it. And I’m gonna put it out there in the big, scary world.
To get it done I’m taking a week. I still have to teach my kids and run my home, but the blog is gonna be on vaca for a week. If all goes well, and I get things done, I’ll only be gone from the blog for one week. If all doesn’t go well, I might be gone for two. But when I get back, I will have a finished book and I will be preparing to offer it to you. Then, I can simply rest in the fact that I was obedient, no matter the outcome.
Wish me well.